Little L is into her third week of school. With all the business of buying a house, the weeks are slipping by, unnoticed, which I hate. I feel like we are missing Autumn, which is my favourite time of year and the season the children absolutely love. There so many fun things to look foward to. What with apple day, going to pick out pumpkins and the fair.It's always a busy, festive, time of year in our family and right now I feel like I'm on auto-pilot.
I'm barely seeing, or appreciating, the bright, clear skies here in the UK right now or the cool nip in the air as we step outside first thing in the morning. My mind is elsewhere, busy thinking about stresses that go along with buying a home. It's hard pulling myself back to the immediate moment, to tend fully to the children, with everything I've got, without having house worries pulling me away again. I didn't realise how much I apprectiated being in the moment, until I start missing those moments. I didn't realise what a true gift being able to be fully present was, until it's gone, if only temporarily. Wow, the amount of missed opportunites for connection right now is quite high between me and the children, which isn't great at the start of the school year. I seem to be climbing inside of myself rather than reaching out, so I can worry in peace. Silly, right?
So, things are quite hard right now, but the shining light is how school seems to be making Little L glow. Do you remember how I worried about letting her go? She is practically skipping out of school at the end of the day with a huge watermelon smile on her face. That's something I'm not missing. I'm drinking is every second of that radiant smile.
